Leaving the Past Behind
The human experience is not an easy one. When we enter this world we are given few guarantees about what awaits us on our journey. We are promised times of joy and times of sorrow, times of thriving and times of suffering, time of hope and times of despair.
Pain is unavoidable. No one escapes life without enduring their share of it. It may seem as if some have larger burdens than others, but that is not true. It is one’s perception that determines the weight of an experience. No two people have the same reality so no two people will experience adversity the same way.
There are many factors that contribute to our interpretation of life’s challenges. Upbringing plays a significant role in preparing us for the road that lies ahead. We navigate that road through the use of coping skills, healthy or unhealthy, attained in our impressionable years.
Healthy coping skills are not innate; they are learned behaviors. Some of us will have the advantage of proper parental modeling, some of us will not. I did not. The skills I have today were realized through much trial and error—mostly error.
Our instincts take over where our inability to cope leaves off. When emotional pain hurts too much to feel we instinctively react as we do to physical pain—ignore it, medicate it, deny and compartmentalize it, or bandage it. These makeshift survival skills allow us to move on to the next thing without having to accept what is right before us. They help us build walls of protection. The higher these walls go, the more shielded we are from the pulse of life. Over time these walls imprison us along with all the pain we have held on to.
A great deal of energy is expended in suppressing the pain we carry with us. It becomes a dam of feelings that pushes harder and harder against the wall, trying to break free. We can only suppress it, mask it, or numb it for so long before it starts seeping through the cracks in ways we do not intend. We may have believed that we controlled the pain, but eventually the pain begins to control us.
The pain may turn to bitterness and then bitterness provides a self-righteous rationale to take a victim stance, to justify holding on to the hurt. If we do not believe we caused it then why should we be the one to let it go? We walk around proudly wearing a badge that says, “I am hurt and entitled to it.”
Our pain becomes an integral part of our identity; there comes a time when we do not know who we are without it. We find ourselves stuck—trying to move forward while looking backwards. Every moment is impacted by the pain of our past, and the future looks bleak.
It is very hard to let the past go; there is a sense of comfort in clinging to it, scary to imagine life without it. But clinging to the past is self-sabotage. We must let it go. We must move past our fear and discover the wonderful life that that we are entitled to—the one that is waiting for us.
The process of changing, letting our past go, may be frightening and difficult even when we truly desire it. It requires redefining our identity and changing our patterns. But that should never deter us. Everyone can heal their past. All that is required is courage and determination. Whether aware or unaware that we have it within us, we all possess those inner-strengths. It is said that only the bravest souls choose to incarnate into life. We are here because we are incredibly courageous.
The first steps to healing are acknowledging that a problem exists and desiring change.
Since it may take time to excavate through the dense accumulation of emotions, it is best to chip away at them little by little. It helps to have a professional guide us through this process, help us to identify our self-defeating patterns, and help us accept our feelings as they come up.
Feelings never before felt can be very disconcerting. But feeling pain means feeling human. By allowing ourselves to feel we become stronger, more resilient, and better equipped to manage other adversity. We learn that when we face our pain with acceptance we will be led through it and then out of it. That understanding stretches our comfort zones. The ever-lengthening chain of positive outcomes teaches us to have hope and faith. We desire more for ourselves then we ever felt worthy of before. We live with intent and our confidence soars. We are prideful knowing that we hold the power over pain—pain does not hold the power over us.
What happened in the past is real, but the past is meant to teach us. We are supposed to learn from the past, not live in it. Our experiences, good and bad, will always be a part of our personal story, just as history will always be part of the story of the world we live in. And our story never ends; we continue to add chapters because our realities are constantly changing. It is not possible to live in the past—the person we are today is not the person we were ten or twenty years ago.
Life is full of countless blessings and infinite possibilities. Every moment is a lesson in inspiration. We need only be present.
Randi G. Fine is a Ft. Lauderdale writer, radio show host, speaker, and published author of the 2010 memoir, Fine…ly: My Story ofHope, Love, and Destiny and the 2012 spiritual/inspirational/self-
Connect with Randi through Social Media
Website/Blog - Randi G. Fine's Love Your Life! - http://www.randigfine.com
Radio Show - A Fine Time for Healing - http://www.blogtalkradio.
"Like" me on Facebook!
"Follow" me on Twitter